Thursday, October 14, 2010

Relying upon God, why do it only when its your only option?

A revelation I have had in the past month is how much I do not rely upon the Lord or live every moment to serve him. One amazing thing about going somewhere that I do not speaks the common language makes me dependent on other people to do simple tasks. Then I realize that I am even more helpless in the eyes of God. God has revealed this to me time and time again here how I prefer to be independent and rely upon myself instead of him. It drives me crazy to have to be the one person at a meeting that someone has to stop and translate for and without that translator I hardly know what is going on at all. Another time where my reliance has been shown is ordering food, sometimes I pull this off well while other times little questions such as, "How would you like your steak cooked?" leaving me utterly helpless and reliant upon someone else.
These things have humbled me and make me aware of how much I try to do with out God. In college most of the time I just let the gifts God gave me do the work for me and never really felt like I needed any help. This is the opposite of what God wants from us. He does not want us to do things own our own, this idea makes the sacrifice of Jesus Christ worthless, it is like saying no I don't need Christ I can do it own my own. This idea sounds crazy when we say out loud or read it in a book; but we continually do this and do not let God have control over our lives. Many times I feel that people decided they would rather keep what they have and continue with what they do daily than to try for more and receive the gifts that God wants for them. I myself after a month am starting to run out of my own strength to do things, which I hope the Lord uses for me to search his will out and to go to him for all I need. Never forget that we are dead without Christ.
My challenge would be that even in your comfort zone to try to do more and ask God to give you the strength to do it. Also I think that many times we are willing to settle for the plans we have for ourselves cause we feel like we can control them and not have to continue to be stretched which is painful but allows us to reach out and do so much more than we could before. I hope that I continue to be broken and stretched by the Lord to accomplish more for his kingdom while I am here.

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